post pardumb

what are my expectations? this is deeper than you thought.

*
**
***
**
*
**
***
**
*
not this but the previous statement.
i went to the zoo today. it was grand.

i had a life-changing dream once about my very own pet giraffe, we snuggled together and we had a bond unlike any other. i'll end the story there because the end of my dream is sad.

but at the zoo today, i saw a one month old baby giraffe, it was so awesome, i freaked out a little. cute lil thing.

i also laughed when i saw a cheetah licking its balls. he gave himself a boner. i laughed again, a little harder, when i overheard a child say "mom, look i can see its other little tail!"

sometimes i selfishly keep things like this to myself, but i decided to share today.

i hope i never forget moments like this. i vow to start writing these things down, selfishly, or unselfishly.

pretty much every time i go to the zoo i get sad for the poor animals. :(

De el Kite Runner

If we come to sleep,
we are His drowsy ones.
And if we come to wake,
we are in His hands.
If we come to weeping,
we are His cloud full of raindrops.
And if we come to laughing,
we are His lightning in that moment.
If we come to anger and battle,
it is the reflection of His wrath.
And if we come to peace and pardon,
it is the reflection of His love.
Who are we in this complicated world?

SuNsEtS aRe KeWl. NaTuRe Is PrEtTy.

guapo

you mean a great deal to me. i miss you.

domestic violence

i liked how you hugged her. i could tell that she really appreciated that. the relief that came across her face was appauling to me. that asshole doesn't know how to treat a lady. you taught me somethings that day; good people come in all kinds of packages, among other things. you gave me a look like 'this poor soul needs some help, i don't know what i'm doing but i'll do my best' at least you tried, that's more than the rest of us. you are a superb example to me of what it means to 'love thy neighbor'.

keep me where the light is

until you realize that you choose how you feel, and you choose how you react, you will be damned. where is the blame channeled? where is mine channeled? you taught me so many things, i am truly grateful that i spent so many days with you. it sucked, but it was fun sometimes too. i still think about some of the good and bad times we had. i think i like to think that i will never regret that which was once loved. things happen for reasons. i choose to see my history as a test i can re-take. i'll learn from mistakes and i'll learn from good choices.

you taught me about respect, friendship, judgement, and lying. you taught me about jealousy, anger, manipulation and lust. you taught me about trust, chances, questions, and self-worth. you taught me about time, compassion, change, and distance. for all of those things positive and negative, i've learned, i owe some to you. there is so much learning to be had, if you look at it right, or hear it right. i choose the positive path. i care about you but i still dont care. i think of growth, and promises as an ending result. you don't hurt me anymore.

night and day

i dont feel this kind of passion for too many people. you don't realize it i don't think, and it bugs me. i hate that you don't know how i really feel about you. my heart is growing everyday. wouldn't that be cool if you could somehow send understandings from person to person? sometimes there just isn't any way to explain things, concepts, feelings to another person. i think it's frustrating. you stir up emotions in me, stop it.

just trying to see people as they are, plus the good stuff

i thought so wrong of you. i wish i would have seen the light in you and gotten past my prejudices about you earlier. there is nothing that i can do to change the past but thats ok. i wouldn't have learned. im so glad i had a chance to talk to you. just by being you, you've shown me that i can see so much more in many other people. ive already been bless because of the lessons i've begun to learn. i have learned to see people differently and see the light that each person has, no matter how big or small that light is, it's important. i'm grateful for you.

i like rainbows